FOR TODAY | 15.12.2019

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As I tumble through the grief into the last 10 days of the most wonderful time of a year and normally, my favourite, there’s a collision of emotions inside me.

 I openly acknowledge that this will probably be the toughest Christmas of my life. That on the 25th, I, like many others, will be a raw nerve. I will feel happiness and sadness, joy and anger all in one day but that’s okay. I will take the day as it comes and I will not force a mask of abject happiness onto my face. I will feel what I need to feel in the knowledge that I will be stronger for getting through it.

 This is here, not for pity but to help ourselves understand our feelings and maybe, along the way, help someone else who is struggling, to understand their own. 

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